Enlightenment seeker

I have not any enlightenment experience, but I believe there is such thing called enlightenment many other beings have.  There were many historical figures who experienced it; found it was marvelous and so could not wait to spread their discovery to share with others once they achieved it.

It is said that when you attain enlightenment, you will feel you are the universe, and universe is in you, but you don't have the sense of "I, My, Me, You and He or She". You will know anything and all the things; know things in the past and in the future as the sense of past and future are not existing at all when you are in this state. These experiences are beyond the capability of our language, so they can not be explained, and that's why Buddha used so many of these words "unexplainable", "unimaginable" in his lectures, and he urged his disciples to experience it by attaining the highest level of enlightenment them selves.

I suppose when we have attained this goal in our spiritual cultivation, our appearance will radiate a peaceful, serene, blissful field, or halo, and attract people seeking for this wonderful energy. This is why Buddha's servants originally despised him when they saw their master dropped off the then commonly acknowledged ascetic practice by accepting the offering of a bowl of goat milk, but were astonished upon seeing their master that they prostrated Buddha and became Buddha's first cohort of disciples. These servants must have been totally converted by what they saw and felt upon Buddha's presence. So what made this difference before and after Buddha's achievement in a full enlightenment is obvious. The Buddhism scriptures recorded many stories about how contemporary masters of other beliefs of that era were originally taking hostile measures toward Buddha, dismissed their own ensembles and came with their followers to worship him and became his disciples.

Even though you will only know how you feel when you are enlightened, but want to share what you have learned and experienced on the journey of enlightenment seeking, You still need to use our language, similes to depict such a mysterious skill.

In 2009, I chanced to follow a link which lead me to a TED video presented by Dr. Jill Taylor. She told the audience how she had experienced a stroke due to a haemorrhage erupted in her left brain. She is a neurologist herself, and the scale of her haemorrhage was not too fatal and not too minor that that incident caused her left brain to shut down and turned on intermittently, and thus allowed her to feel the difference when it was down, and when it was on. She said she was aesthetic, however, she felt the blissfulness; she felt she was totally melt down and mixed in the universe and also felt universe was in her when her brain was only functioning on the right side. The feeling was so wonderful that she felt she wanted to be in that state of Nirvana.

During the time of my daily sitting meditation, my thoughts must have become sharper than usual time because I have experienced many times that I got solution or better idea for the issues I concern or for the project at my hands from the meditation session. But the utmost importance of my meditation practice is to achieve a much higher level of stilling the data processing and enter a state of extreme blissfulness. Recently I suspect this possibility of achieving the goal because perhaps the nature of the freely associating to things in the ego is  not possible to intervene at our will just like our heart beats can not be regulated freely at our will. With this thought I should have been discouraged to do meditation practice, however, the motivation is still quite high. How come? There are real examples that many of them out there can achieve the goal, so there should not be any reason that anyone of us can not.